ashame to meet

my best friend want meet me,
i am poor ashame to meet this best friend is rich,
past times i ask money from this best friend,
this best friend give me money,
i debt owed to this best friend,
i want pay back, this best friend said that is gift,
i said we will meet when i am rich when i can pay back,
past times this best friend always pay me eat food at restaurants,
this best friend always pray for me and help me when i am in trouble,
i don't want to be burden for this best friend,
i cut off myself from this best friend,
for this best friend to be better without me,
horse must run without turtle, sad:(