something happened very very very fast that i can not control,
the spirit of destiny control my emotion to make decision action,
why GOD created my patience very low and anger very high?
i don't know, the mystery of GOD, the destiny created by GOD,
all everything happened to me are according to destiny of GOD,
GOD has planned something for me that i don't know what that,
move from house to house, from city to city, problem to problem,
something very mysterious destiny planned by GOD for my life,
no one know except GOD, GOD is hiding some things from me,
may GOD give me the house of peace, so i can stay live peace.
the detail happened problem at rent room house robinson jakarta:
in the beginning before the second times i come again to robinson,
she the owner of house robinson, she sms offer me for rent room,
in the first time i rent room house robinson at 2010 for one month,
i have problems with next room young man and old man in house,
2010 young man age about 20 years from kupang ntt indonesia east,
the problems begin when first night i heard the next room a voices,
i suspicious think next room do sex, i knock door, ask what voice,
he said he was praying, i talk with him from about 00:00-04:00 am,
he told many things about him, from bad boy change to good christian,
he had through many hard times angers fight with others in hometown,
but GOD JESUS change him to good christian, he come to jakarta,
he follow his elder brother is priest and worker industry at bandung,
here jakarta he have job as technician repair paint cars little salary,
he work for have money that someday he can have study theology,
he want to be a priest and have a job like his elder brother doing,
once a week his elder brother come visit from bandung to jakarta,
his elder brother work at bandung and as priest at jakarta church,
that sunday i went with him to his church, i buy food drink for him,
but something happened to him, maybe his elder brother told him,
must careful with strangers, he changed, he make distance with me,
he not want talk with me anymore, i hurted angry know about this,
i angry sms with him, tfn his name, about why he changed like that,
i angry talk to his elder brother, his elder brother keep silent mute,
i apologized with tfn the young man for my wrong bad word anger,
2010 old man age about 70 years come from same hometown of me,
in the beginning i talk with him, and he tell me about some info of him,
he sold his hometown house and come to jakarta for his family, but
something happened, he not told me, he keep in secret the problems,
he not stay with his son family house, he rent room this robinson house,
finally from she the owner of house robinson, she told me about him,
he is anger person, so better i not talk too much with him the old man,
since i knock door of tfn at night, the old man can not sleep by disturb,
he told she, that i am bad person, because i knock door night disturb,
since that, he feel think bad about me, i feel think bad about him too,
when he wash teeth, he do spit spit spit, i heard hurted about his spit,
i angry talk to him, and he angry talk to me, she suggested i move out,
i apologized with the old man for i wrong bad word anger talk to him,
i moved to others house for rent room at grogol jakarta for solve this,
the first time i rent room house robinson 1 month 400000 ( 30 days ),
2011 she the owner sms offer me rent room at her house robinson,
because i have problems at rent room house of grogol, i accept that,
i move to her house robinson, this the second times i come robinson,
i apologized again with the old man for past times my wrong words,
in the second day after i moved into house, the old man moved out,
he told she that he want stay with others same old ages friends talk,
the old man is he who have problem with me in the past times 2010,
so i understand and think, because i come, and he go out for peace,
i think he avoid problem, he not want problem with me again, he out,
i am feeling guilty, i was being used by she the owner to make him out,
because she the owner give the old man free stay, he stay for 2 years,
because the old man usually spit when wash teeth that make problem,
several people was rent room and move out maybe because that spit,
so i think, she the owner want the old man out, and used me to do this,
other problem come from the house helper a young girl age about 17,
she wash dress of owner and help owner cooking and all house jobs,
she stay at next room of me, maybe because i watch tv noise at night,
she the house helper at morning turn on music songs from her phone,
i think she disturb want revenge to me, because i sleep in the morning,
or maybe the owner suggest to the helper turn on music to disturb me,
i angry wake up and talk in anger with the house helper and the owner,
of course the owner defense the helper, in anger i decided to move out,
i apologized maybe i wrong think wrong said, and i move out to grogol,
the second times rent room house robinson just only 7 days lost 400000,
lost money better than stay in problem, avoid problem is better solution,
why my destiny very bad, why GOD created my destiny very bad? why?
why GOD created me high sensitive low patience high anger? for what?
find the good house, search the peace house, for better life in the future,
may GOD give me a good house, a house of peace, for better life, amen.
GOD JESUS SAVIOR